On a saturday night, there I was sitting on the couch located at the living room staring at my newly bought books and the empty Starbucks cup right next to it. I recalled glancing at the brown piano that was a couple of meters away from me. 

The next thing I knew, I was seated infront of the piano, reaching out for the keys hesitantly. It has been months since I last touched the piano, or has it been over a year already? I can’t seem to remember. 

I start to play the piece I claimed to memorize by heart not too long ago, Canon in D. Such a lovely lovely piece. I vividly recall the day I promised and crossed my heart that I would learn it and play it flawlessly. Maybe it was because of the scene from My Sassy Girl when Charlie brought that rose to Jordan during the 33rd day that brought me to tears and convinced me that one day, Canon in D will be played in my wedding. Am I talking too much? I’m sorry about that, I got carried away.

Going back, I began playing the piano. The music did not come out the way I expected. I knew the reasons why. My fingers were not familiar with the keys as much as they used to, they were slipping, poking at the wrong sharps and flats. My tempo and rhythm were off. It’s so funny how when I was six years old, I would play the piano every single day with dedication, though at that time I refused to believe that I was doing so well.

With frustration, eventually, I had to dig through my dusty pile of music sheets. There it was, Canon in D. My eyes had to scan the black squibbly musical notes while guiding my hands to hit the right keys.

What was I thinking? Of course I couldn’t expect to simply sit infront of the piano and play perfectly. I couldn’t have just left and gone back one day to expect that it would be the same. Who was I fooling? 

Two hours into playing, there I was, still sitting in front of the brown piano. A little bit frustrated, but had forgiven myself along the way. 

With patience, understanding and perhaps time as well, I know that I will certainly be back. A little bit older, different and changed. but with certainty, I know for sure that I will get better.